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Feelings during Holidays
Well, I can legitimately say that I feel lonely today. I’ve always had a small circle, family & friends. As some of you know, I’m not close with chunks of my family, I’m missing other chunks of my family, and there are other chunks that I have just decided not to burden my life with anymore. My friends are my chosen family, for the most part. However, here I am in LA. My family and friends are worlds away. I’ve done nothing but work my butt off lately and tune out the rest. I subconsciously distanced myself from the world in my quest to work entirely too much and save up money to be back in school by next fall. So, since about 10am this morning, I’ve been laying in bed… typing, writing in my journal, listening to music… trying to digest exactly what it is I feel right now. Thing is, I would have zero hope at all if it weren’t for talented people who wrote music, books, etc about their trying times. I have been so concerned with being closed off, never letting anyone in, never letting anyone get close… I forgot that the things I use to help me get through tough times are written by people who do just the opposite. People who can just pour out their soul to the public and be like, DEAL WITH IT. It happened, these are the remaining pieces of me, I am not ashamed. No apologies, no regrets. As much as I’ve dealt with lately, I feel like I’m finally getting to that point. My childhood, my teens, living on my own since 17, putting myself through school, working, changes with my family relations, my transition into porn, my life since then… It happened. I am still trying to figure out exactly which pieces of me remain, and which ones I’ve lost for good. But, I am not ashamed. No apologies, no regrets. I don’t know why I feel like my story is a story that needs to be shared. There isn’t one particular reason that makes me feel like my life, my pain, my struggles, my silver lining, my story will help any other one person. But I feel like I’ve benefitted so much from listening to other people lay it all on the line, they got me through. I want to continue on with what they’ve done for me, and maybe do that for someone else. So, you’ll be seeing a lot more of my random ramblings.
As far as today goes, I miss familiarity. I don’t think I miss home, just the familiarity. I miss good food. I miss Christmas trees. I spent YEARS saying I would never get married and I would never have kids. To be honest, today is the first day in quite some time where I stopped and thought… I can’t wait until I have my own family. I can’t wait until I have people to cook for every day. I can’t wait until I have a million socks to match and fold out of the dryer. I can’t wait until I find those missing puzzle pieces. I never had that family unit feeling as a kid, and I tried TOO hard to find it when I was too young. I was in a serious relationship for far too long, dealt with more from him then I ever should have, and now I look back on it and I know I wasn’t ready. I just craved that fulfillment. I wanted to belong. Now, I’m thankful to be away from him. The thought of my own family is no longer an instant requirement, it’s just a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s something I can spend MANY nights dreaming about, looking forward to… I know it will happen when it’s time, and I can’t wait. Until then, I’ll be in my hello kitty snuggie, with my hello kitty bong, writing in my hello kitty journal about how, apparently, it just isn’t time yet.
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Aria Aspen tells the story of her ink for Commentary #2 :) | Tattoo ... As I'm sure you've all noticed, I have quite a few tattoos, and some of you may wonder how & why they all came about. Quite a few of you hit me up on twitter about it, so I figured I would take the time now to tell the story of ...
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